Eminem - Deja Vu Lyrics
As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime canidate for the gene to recieve the drug addict traitBlood pressure climbs at a dramatic rateI seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil then I salivateStart off with the Nyquil like I think I'll just have a tasteCouple sips of that then I gradually graduateTo a harder prescription drug called valium like yeah, that's greatI go to take just one and I end up like havin eightNow I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ateMaybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steakAnd you'd think with all I have at stakeLook at my daughters face.."Mommy something is wrong with dad I thinkHe's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare meWont shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear meAnd all he does is eat doritos and cheetosAnd he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat[Chorus]Sometimes I feel so alone,I just dont know, feels like I been down this road before,So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over meAs soon as I go home and close the doorKinda it feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place, I doBut I cant and I wont,Say I try but I know that's a lie cause I dontAnd why I just dont knowMaybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?That's the devil in my ear, I been sober a *****in yearAnd that *****er still talks to me, he's all I can *****in hear"Marshall come on, we'll watch the game, it's the cowboys and buccaneers"And maybe if I just drink half I'll be halfed buzzed for half of the timeWho's that mastermind behind that little line?With that kind of rational, man, I got half a mindTo have another half of glass of wine, sounds assinine, yeah I knowBut I never had no problem with alcoholOuch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm bout to fallI missed the couch and down I go lookin like a bouncy ballShit must have knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at allWow, what the ***** happened last night, where am I?Man, ***** am I hungover, and goddamn I got a headacheShit, half a vicodin, why cant I?"All systems ready for take off please stand by"ChorusSo I take a vicodin, splash, it hits my stomach and "Ahh"A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin highNow I need it just not to feel sick, yah I'm gettin byWouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't dieOh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you useThere's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin you to get throughIt's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin a snoozeWhat else is new, ***** it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?Now here I am 3 months later, full blown relapse"Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes, relax"And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniacI need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 napsJust to be able to function throughout the day, let's seeThat's an ambian each nap, how many valium, 3?And that will average out to about one good hour's sleepOk so now you see the reason how come heHas taken 4 years to just put out an album bSee me and you we almost had the same outcome HeathCause that Christmas, you know the pneumonia thing?It was bologna, was it the methadone ya think?Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornosYour VCR tape cases, with your ambian see are great places to hide em, ain't it?So you can lie to Hailie, "I'm goin beddy bye Whitney baby, goodnight ElainaGo in the room and shut the bedroom doorAnd wake up in an ambulance, they said they found me on the bathroom floorChorus