John Reuben - I Haven't Been Myself (DJ Form Remix) Lyrics
Im not alright, I havent been myself latelyIm not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtakeTake me away to the place I should have goneI hope Im not here for longIll see you when Im betterI'll see you when I'm betterIts gotta get worse to get betterIt went from no way, never to okay, whateverSlowly but surely and sure as sure is blurryNow things that once were me are no longerEvery so often God reminds meBut Im always there in front to blind meI value my pride more than peace of mindMy precious prideThere was a time when I had control but I let it goI watched the world passin slowmoMy lifes ahead of meI cant catch upStuck in a rutI went too willinglyThese thoughts are killing meI wish I could control myself but I cantOr can I?Man Im goneI hope Im not here for longIts just a visitAshamed of who Ive becomeIts not really meOr is it?Im not alright, I havent been myself latelyIm not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtakeTake me away to the place I should have goneI hope Im not here for longIll see you when Im betterThoughts lead to emotion which led to actionI hate the fact that it happenedThe Lord can forgive and forgetBut Im not able to do itMaybe there is where the problem liesIm unable to forgive myself plus Im too proud to ask for helpWhelp, sorry for who Ive becomeI guess circumstances can leave you numbPlus, I refused accountabilityIt seemed like such small things you found in meI called you secluded and illuded to the fact that your concerns were sillyDont over-reactNow looking back in hindsight, hehIm able to see that you were rightIs it too late for me?I know its notIts just up to me to choose to stopIm not alright, I havent been myself latelyIm not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtakeTake me away to the place I should have goneI hope Im not here for longIll see you when Im betterIm not alright, I havent been myself latelyIm not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtakeTake me away to the place I should have goneI hope Im not here for longBetterI'll see you when I'm betterIm not alright, I havent been myself latelyIm not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtakeTake me away to the place I should have goneI hope Im not here for long
