Front Porch Step - I Won't Say That I'm Okay Lyrics
I won't hold my tongueI'm not okay without you hereI guess what's done is doneI just feel so exposed without you nearAnd I won't say that I'm okay'cause you taught me not to lieSo know that I'll miss you everydayYou always taught me to be goodAnd always do my best to be selflessBut I know that God is holding youAnd I am so damn jealous'cause I miss your arms around meAnd the way you make me laughAnd now I'm stuck inside this prisonThat says you're never coming back.So I'm sitting in my roomAs I try to write this song.I'm so sorry that it's not good enough,It's just that everything seems wrong.And I keep bursting into tearsBecause the pain won't go awayBecause the Father took my best friendAnd said she cannot come out to playAnymore.I won't hold my tongueI'm not okay without you hereI won't hold my tongueI'm not okay without you hereI won't hold my tongueI'm not okay without you hereI guess what's done is doneBut I just feel so exposed without you near.And I won't say that I'm okay'cause you taught me not to lieSo know I'll miss you everydayYou always taught me to be goodAnd always do my best to be selflessBut I know that God is holding youAnd I am so damn jealous'cause I miss your arms around meAnd the way you make me laughAnd now I'm stuck inside this prisonThat says you're never coming back.And now I'm sitting in my roomAs I try to write this song.I'm so sorry that it's not good enough,It's just that everything seems wrong.But I will try my best to be goodSo I can pave my wayStraight through the pearly gatesInto your arms so we can playOnce more.Spoken:Grandma, uh, I love God with all my heart and the only reason that isInstated in my life is because of you. And I really don't understand theGod that you introduced me to would take you away so fast when you were theOnly person who understood a thing I ever said. And I really don't know howTo deal with this anymore. And, I'm just really not okay with this and IMiss you and I understand you're in heaven but I wanna be selfish. I don'tWant you to be in heaven; I want you to be back down here. I don't want youTo be there. I want you to be here. What am I supposed to do now? That'sAll I'm asking.
